I want to be inspired

and feel safe enough

that my financial needs are met

without sacrifice

struggle

or sorrow

I want to express myself

‘You do want to express yourself, don’t you?’

with sex and clothes and hair

not necessarily all at once

but definitely could be yo!

I want to dance

wild and crazy

alone in my yoga room

and in a big class

with strangers and kindred friends

booty shake to hip hop

and collapse with cleansing cries

to kirtan

I want to be loved

and stop feeling like

others don’t care or understand

I want to feel connected

I already AM connected

but sometimes my physical form

drags behind –

If I reach out, will you take hold?

Will you reach out too?

because sometimes I

am too hurt to try

My silence is always

a withdrawal of pain

Just like you,

I am doing my best

I want to be embraced

by abundance, goodness,

love, trees, little piggies,

kittens, puppies, horsies,

rabbits, little fishes,

the wind, the sun,

the water,

the river

the Ocean

carry me home…

deep inside

I get very lost

even with all the grace

and majesty I experience

and know,

this human woundedness

craves safety and comfort

– a need that must be met –

I DON’T WANT ANY MORE QUESTS

I want to laugh

laugh laugh laugh

because IT IS funny!

OMG, it is flippin’ hilarious

please laugh with me,

and as we dance

give me a dip

a swift, deep dip

where my back, neck,

and head surrender in full-bodied extension,

And as you support my weight

I will rest in the palm of your hand

that eternally holds the back of my heart

 

– Written by Angela Savitri